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Comment to be added I will more then happily Do so!

First of all
"SUNNYDELIGHT... it tastes so good.. I almost felt bad about doing it, but then he took a drink and I just smiled"

Ok so only one person will really know what that means. But its been pawing at the back of my head for some time now and <3 it makes me feel all warma nd fuzzy.. ok not really it just makes me laugh.

So I went ahead and called her.

I'm not sure what made me do it... or what I wanted from the whole thing. Maybe I just wanted closer or something I had the perfect speach in my head all planned out.. what I wanted to say, and the questions I wanted to ask. But when I heard her voice I forgot everything. If felt kind of dumb stumbling over my words, cause usually I have plenty to say, especailly when some one has hurt me as bad as she did. Over all it was a good conversation and I'm glad we had it. Its one I had been puttin goff for a long time, I still don't agree with everything she is doing but asleast I don't have that angry knot in my chest anymore. I'm not sure what will come of it, if we can be friends agin but at least its one more thing I don't have to worry about. That thing she is with how ever... well I'm not going to go there.

Arugh, I swaer this drama that I have made a huge effort to stay out of.. ie, changing schools, homes, citys, work, hang outs, what ever. Always seems to fallow me. Even with people I haven't seen or heard from in years. How pathetic must thier lives be to focus that much on what i'm doing? Man their lives must be boring and uneventfull if all they can do it bitch about me. If my life was that dull, I would want to kill myself. ^_^ Thankfully I have a life (and a pretty good one at that) So I can manage to entertain myslef long enough to not gossip and angst over other peoples lives.

I roxxors

Lets try and actully update... o.0

SO yeah new car, Iv had it since noon yesterday. *hearts and start* My mother refers to it as the enterprise cause the Onstar lady sounds like the computer. And It has a car phone so people can call my car. <3 Which I can name a couple people who will be doing that... alot. I am very happy with it so far, and I figure if I get to bored of it (though I don't see how its possible with this car) I can trade it in, in 4 years. Maybe get a used Sky then. (hooray for converatbles!)

So next is the house. Jay says we are closing on the 17th. Ao as long as it doens't get pushed back again we should ebe fine. It makes me ansy but I guess I can wait a little longer. The house is nice though and It looks like I'll have floor to ceiling built in book shelves in which to store my anime/manga/book/movie/game collection. (I hope theres enough room
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To the person I talked to the other... other. I <3 you (in a totally plutonic way) And I hope that every thing works out. (How ever it works out) I am here for you and such.

Ah such is the life.

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New Car!

Yes I bought a new car. A 2007 Saturn Ion. I get to go pick it up today <3<3<3<3 I'm really excited.
Oh yes much <3<3<3<3 To Satori for the help today. <3

yay

WHY?????!!!!

Why do you have to be so...

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everybodylovesyou

EVERYBODY LOVES YOU. Hell I love you... (in a totaly straight and not sexual way)... (though if I did swing that way...)
I have no reason to hate you...
I even want to be your friend! How sick is that? I want to be your friend.. that how great you are.
Your so nice to every one... your smart, you have every thing that matters going for you. Even when u think it
sucks.... when your some one else looking at you... I wish my life sucked like yours.
Your so good to him.... arugh. I hate the fact that I can't hate you. Cause its not your fault.
Its not your fault your so freakin wonderful. Its not your fault that I suck. Its not your fault I fail at life.

Why are you so perfect for each other??????? it drive me insane. It drives me mad that you two are so happy.
I drive me insane that your so damn.... argh. *head desk*

I can tell that he loves you, so don't for a second believe otherwise.I want you to be the frist to know that I'll
be the one killing him if he hurts you cause... He would be insane to hurt a perfect girlfriend like you.

I hope that we can be friends... and I hope that I can block this whole thing out of my head. Then agian I don't know why you would want to be firend with me...


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I don't want you to think ill of me if you ever happen to read this.. Nor do I
want you to think me weird. Its just something I wanted to get off of my chest.

I guess I really am Envious after all.

I feel better now

Hepititus C

yup... it sucks

WORK in exactly... one hour... though by the time this gets posted, a large amount of time will have been alotted. Except for my new found love for raspberry lemon spring water, everything seems to be about the same.

If something unexpected happens to my superviosr in the dark bowels of the basement region, its not my fault.. really its not my fault he fell... o.o don't look at me that way... *cough*
No really work is good... I love the work its just the people I can't stand. And its not all the people, jus tthe ones I directly work with aside from the new kid... who is like a monkey on speed. If I could just get him to slow down I think we'd get along sooooo much better.

I love my baby. I should just say that right now.... though he can't read this cuase he has no LJ.... o.o alright so the point is a bit mute I guess... but oh well.

Something bad happened to my cell phone charger.. i think that it was cut... and I think I know who did it... but because of prying/spying eyes I'm not going to mention who. This mean I have to go out to the store and buy a new one... so If I don't answer the phone for a while...thats why.


Argh... work.

Da na na na... na na... na na...

Can't touch this....

I feel relived at the goings on that recently happened. I needed to be done and I has. And let leave it at that.


I finally can get on line more often. ^_^ Yay so I can update this stupid thing.



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-Luna... how come when I need you the most... you seem to not be here... *twitch* Right now girl... you seem like the only one I can talk to about anything. And let me tell you... I have a LOT of talking to do.
-Dad... ha, that was a funny one... yeah.
-Joe... Please oh please oh please get hit by a truck or something.
-Tom... I can't dislike you cause you are what you are... an asshole. And I except that.
-Josh... I feel badly becuase I don't like giving firneds the silent treament unless they deserve it... But I think it might do you some good. That and a cold, cold shower.
-Nate... heh heh pineing...
Satori... I HAVE A PROPASITION FOR YOU!!!!!!!!ONE!!!! so I'll call you and let you know what thats about. Maybe we could get Steph in on it too.


I wasn't going to go to Vertex tonight on the acount of the fact I am really tired from the party type thing last night.... and seeing is how I thought I was going to be driving up to Moonshine. I have desided not to go to Moonshine and to go to Vertex... *nods* I want to see if I can find Adam, or Dawn, or priest. Cause I really need to talk to them.



27 chains and counting

Julian owes Jordan $20

Jordan <3

So yeah


Party at my house... tongiht... ^_____________^ Woot... all are invited who see this note. Just call me and ket me know your coming.


Ja

PS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!: BYOB

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Well.... for anyone that knows me... you know what has been going on latly.

-S/M is over, as much as it can be.
-I'm sorry Rin, but I can't execpt that. It might seem cruel of me.. but In turn you need to see if from my side.
-His name is Tobias. My mother told me I should name him and hold my fathers grave as his. R.I.P my little one.
-No matter what happenes I <3 Josh.... and Julian.
-Jordan what you told me really hurt me on a level you don't even know.... just thought you should know that.
-Dave... if you don't see this... i'll find some time to give you the paper work I just printed out.
-Sorry for seeming rude before Patty, its not you... and you have a beautiful Son.


Everything else is small stuff.



P.S. Julian owes Jordan $20. ^____^

Ha Ha Ha Ha... Its so nice to make a post on the livejournal I have so woefully been neglecting these past few months. Not entirly my fault mind you... Its not like I have the internet wried to my brain.... wait I wonder if they could do that... o.o

ni'ways, I wanted to make a deep meaning full post about something... but when I go hear IO realize that I am at a loss for words... Everthing that has been going on latly I really can't talk about on the internet so... blah

so yea... her is my update.



UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM: shy
I WANT: to be around people
I WISH: to be alone
I HATE: slow drivers
I MISS: my dad
I FEAR: failure.
I HEAR: way to much
I WONDER: if I'll always feel this way
I REGRET: panda
I AM NOT: perfect... so why does every one think I have to be
I DANCE: When no one is looking
I SING: like an angel when no ones around
I CRY: because I can't seem to say what I really think sometimes
I AM NOT ALWAYS: smiling.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: art.
I CONFUSE: everyone around me.
I NEED: a coke
I SHOULD: run away
I START: but can never seem to finish
I FINISH: what I didn't start
I LOVE: my panda
I TAG: Lastat

Tell six things about yourself and then tag six more people to do the same, no tag backs.

1.I work for Monroe Ambulance... (is that how you spell it)

2. I'm actually a really shy and slightly introverted person. If you stick me in a room with a bunch of people I don't know... it would be at least an hour before I take my shirt off and start singing show tunes.

3. Though I am an EMT I would actually like to open a CCG shop or something.

4. I know over 5 languages... and still can't spell to save my life.

5. I love painting and drawing but I hate art.

6. SOme times I feel the only way to show some one I love them is to help them leave me. ^_^

You're it: lunadragonmance, meigahime, pengisama, draivin, lokowolfpunk,

I'll get started right o' way on my Will Of the Whisp gard.

Will be very exciting.. yes.